qrow`d up, much?

the old me would've put the btch on BLASSSTT ..
see, i know soooo much DiRT about her;
you'd think that she would KNOW not to fck wit me!
if i REALLY wanted to EXPOSE her, i could.
& most people tellinq me that i should ..
but i GREW up.& chanqed my ways;
DONE with the nonsense & the child play.
in sooo OVER the situation at hand, tbh ..
"& whyy exactly?" , is what everybody's asking;
i KNOW that EVERYTHING is gon come back on her;
the LIES. the BETRAYAL. & every otha FCK'd UP thing
that she done did to me & the rest of the world.
& its qon HIT her ass 10 TIMES HARDER!
mufckas qon wanna put da btch 6 FT UNDER
when all dis sht come to light. & it will.
that much i can GUARANTEE you!
so for the time beinq ..,
YOU'RE FCKN WELCOME.
cuz bitch, I'M KEEPING YOU ALIVE!

Fck Dem Otha Hoes, Fck Dem Otha Bitches.

[The Lil Sis Lex]

aint even been a whole year

& dis btch been ridinq fa me

like she knew me her whole life.

(wit' her YOUNG ass!)

qot all love for you;

& on qodddd . .

im NEVA qon turn my bck on dis one!

mufckas done left her high & dry;

but we still out hur thuqqin on dem hoes.

CAASSSHHHH OUTTTT!!

----

[The Bff Cuppy]

afta all dese otha hoes done went M.I.A

she STILL here tho . .

we done been through some shit ova the years;

& mufckas still aint hip to what we be on!

schemin on hoes, making BIG moves;

otha bitches cant handle how REAL you is.

im on it doe & dis sht fa life dawg

(it betta be, im gettin you tattd!)

but fck all da sentimental,

& FIREEEEE DAT UPPPPPPPP!

& im STILL eating!

aye, do me a favor for a second ..

think back & gather a list of all the bitches

that you have EVER befriended in life;

now hold that thought!

its crazy when you think about how FEW of dem still fck wit you; chances are VERY slim that you even conversate with half of em. but can you remember when them same mufckas was yo WORLD? (seriously) like you was ALWAYS with them; slept in da same bed wit dem hoes every weekend, called dey byrd "mama", told them yo entire life story & some mo shit, cashed out on em whenever they needed you to, etc. NOW LOOK AT YA! prolly fell out ova a NIGGA, anotha btch "stealing" her away, maybe even ova some clothes her ass borrowed & failed to return. (lhh) its CRAZY out hur! & i honestly feel STUPID as hell about being friends with more than half of the mufckas i used to be cool wit. i let dem bitches come in my world, get close to me, & den turn dey backs on me. BICTHES IS NOT LOYAL! at all. its hoes out hur straight sneaking on me HARDDD; but dey not even coming hard enough! what you mufckas have still failed to realize is: THERE IS NO BREAKING ME! its not happening; not neva. bruh, im not dat btch. IM THAT BITCH! ya hoes NEEDED me; & ya gon need me before i eva need ya mufckas. im STILL out hur. im STILL cashing out. & im STILL eating!

Nigga Aint Acting Rite?

well show a lil skin

&

head to iHOP

it seemed to work wonders for me!

shoutout to c-dubb fa putting me up on dat

(you know what im talking bout]

Scandle Handled.

So, me & my homeboy was talking earlier today.

Just having general conversation;

{school, summer, love interests, friends, etc.]

& we happened to stumble upon this one female.

See once upon a time, you couldnt have told me shit about her.

She was my muthafckn bitch!;

but like I said, that was wayyy back then.

Ppl had been told me what type of sht` she be on.

What type of btch she was.

& what type of friend she wasnt.

Being me, I befriended her anyway.

Only to find out for myself,

what everybody had already tried to tell me.

Shidddd, she was straight sneaking on me all along!

I mean, I shoulda known right from the start tho;

I sat bck & watched her do her

own mufckn blood in like a bitch off the street.

So it was no fckn problem

for her to do some sht like that to me!

(or at least try to..}

Cuz little did she know,

I keep my niggas on lock.

Come on now, we in it for life!

I mean, I am kinda sorta tattd on em`.

Rite? [lhh)

TORN.

the only thing that i could even do at that moment

was to let the tears flow.

i thought there was no way to break us for good,

but i guess this proved me wrong..

i mean, we've had our fair share of fall outs.

sht` who doesn't?

none of our downfalls even come close

to comparing to this one thing.

you just told me that you weren't going

anywhere anytime soon;

i believed you.

& then you hit me with:

"aw baby dont be mad,

but im moving to texas this weekend".

wait. what?

when you plan on telling me this?

& this all comes just when everything is perfect again;

actually better than before, if you ask me.

it seem like we be together every single day,

& lately we been growing alot closer.

but i guess none of that matters to you..

i cant even begin to cope with the fact that you leaving

& i doubt that i ever will.

right now i feel like you just ripped out my heart,

torn it into a billion pieces,

& dumped it off in the river somewhere.

this is so unreal to me;

& its honestly too much for me to handle..

Short, Simple. Straight To The Point.

sigh . .

today was filled with pure bliss;

couldn't have gone any better.

but then again,

it was missing ONE thing..

-whole other story tho-

spent the day with the bff & the love.

*realest mfckas i know;

( besides the big cuzzin, that is. ]

had some deep convos,

talked about alot of real sht..

or the LACK there of.

shtttt, all i can say is

ITS REALLY REAL OUT HUR!

Bad Btch Shopping Trip ... ?

more like girls gone wild!

[lhh)

the bff & her randomness

caught on camera.

Eeeek,Update!

ughhhhhhhhhhh, life has been...HECTIC!! [..though i doubt that's the word for it..) the picture basically describes it best! with finals less than a week away & seniors leaving in a couple days; everything has gotten more complicated. instead of planning out the beautiful summer ahead, i've settled for photo opts & yearbook signing. lolz; in my mind, school was over weeks ago.. so learning has been the last thing on my mind. i got wayyyyy bigger sht to handle.. -like what to do about the situation at hand. ugh, i'm torn between ... a few! pretty much had my mind made up. but i happened to see thee old love unexpectedly. (smiling just at the thought of em`!) & then there's the doctorrrr. he's head over heels for me. [i think..) the dad lovesssss me! says i'm the best daughter-in-law yet. lhh; come on, how could i let that man down? then again, he's already preoccupied. if you get the hint. oh, i have no problem with being a mistress. don't get me wrong.. but what does that say about our future relationship. sht`, you think about that. the other miscellaneous niggas are just that, now that i've thought about it. so they aren't even worth the time to talk about. omg, have i really written this much about sooooo little? if you still reading i don't even know what to say about you at this point! sht, thnx for reading. i guess..( lolz)

i know, i know. i knowww...
i be on one, at least they tell me so..

ttyl my lovessss..

Love Gone Wrong ... ?

With all odds against me, I went in with everything I had.

Bearing it all to win your heart;

all the while knowing that maybe,

quite possibly,

at the end of it all i would have a broken heart.

&`as crazy as it may sound..

that sat perfectly fine with me.

So over the course of nearly four seasons

I fought my way to the top,

only to find that the feeling of

triumph & success would be short lived.

Maybe because of the exisiting factor

that was already present in your life;

causing the both of us to be confused.

But then again, maybe what we had wasnt a big deal..

I could go on for days with maybe this & that;

& after it's all said,

I still wouldn't be able to come up with a reason.

A reason to why we are the way we are;

a reason that would sit fine by me

& bring some type of closure to the situation.

But finding a reason to love gone wrong

is like finding a needle in a haystack.

Some things just can't be done,

no matter how hard you try..

- Allow Me To Re-Introduce Myself ..

. . .

been on every social networking site imaginable;

blogs have came and gone.

but.this time it's different , ,

i'm telling my story this time around;

taking the world inside my life.

thus the name, A Tiny Memoir

. . .