late niqht writinq session

so its like one sumn` in thee a.m.; && it just seems like everybody has been in they feelings today. like extraaa deep! & me, im right along with em; it aint nothing new though. i stay thinking real hard; over-analyzing sht; causing my feelings to get the best of me. im my own worst enemy when it comes to my emotions. i just get myself so worked up over the littlest things! like right now, its so much on my mind; i don't even know where to begin. im having mixed emotions && second thoughts; ugh, i wish people would just leave the past in the past; mfckas see im tryna move on. & im doing pretty damn good on forgetting about all the miscellaneous niggas out hur; but people insist on speaking on them. they insist on hitting my line; mfckas`still tryna be on my team. && all i can do is smh at the world! cuz its pretty clear to me that the world aint tryna let me be; cant nobody stand to see me shine. they aint tryna let me be happy, at all. & getting all wrapped up in my emotions aint gon` make the situation no better; i gotta get me. i cant complete somebody else if im not even complete myself; so imma do what i gotta do for us to make it <3

early morninq; blahhh!

to have had such a "idk" night; my morning is looking quite wonderful. woke up to find $$$ under my pillow; NOT from the tooth fairy, either! had breakfast & early txt convo's w/the btchs; anticipation mixtape, facebook. & my favorite pastime: blogging! i KNOW i've been slacking on the whole blogging thing; kinda let this summer get the best of me. && it wasn't even a big deal like i expected , smh! but it was fun while it lasted; here&there w/the fab5: clubs, malls, late nights at kiyla's. being with them funny looking, retarded ass btch's is all i really remember! good thing, bad thing? who knows. sht, aint nobody else really important; except for my boyfriend. aint really a "relationship" person; &iDONT like either of those words ( boyfriend or relationship}. but, being in a relationship w/HIM is different; it's feels so natural. so right. i mean, he was my first love afterall; nearly 3 years in the making has led up to this point. im happy to say that im content with life&love at this moment ..

Picture This ..

picture this ..

after a thousand words said,

we still couldn't understand what was

in each others heads.

complete. content.

sunrise to sunset;

so fly like stars.

you were everything i wished for;

but yet, you made time to speak your mind

when i wasn't pleasing you.

took my love in vain;

i was bleeding you.

lonely nights i held my pillow tight,

wishing i was squeezing you.

it's crazy we can only see the bad times

when we're together

&& remember the good when we're apart.

if we throw away our love

does that bring us back to the start?

time heals all wounds,

but i can't rewind my heart.

is the flame still not there

if seeing you ignites the spark?

picture this:

after a thousand words said,

we could never understand

what was in each others heads ..

&`while i was m.i.a ,, (randoms]