always&forever.

although we fell short of forever; isly.a&f

Reunited;&`it feels SO good.

for reasons uknown.&`others that are quit blatant;

the five of us went our separate ways,

quit fckn wit' each other all together.
sht, we all to blame for letting it go that easily;

but when that "fab5 reunion" txt went out,

we quickly put the pieces bck together.

ilu4.&`thats forever

< / 3 .

reality just set in
& it looks like im at a dead end ..
each way i look & every way i turn,
i see us drifting further to the point of no return.
so now must be the right time to say goodbye
& thats something we must not deny.
it was inevitable that we would meet our demise,
since the love we had was buit on nothing but lies;
lies that were engraved from the start
& carried on to enslave our hearts.
my little heart can only take so much
& its honestly had more than enough.
i wanna be liberated. set free;
from all the lies that once were binding me.
i wanna be emancipated. & freed;
so me & my heart can one day succeed
at this thing that they call love,
cuz remaining here, thats one thing i'll fall short of.

Not Seeing Me ..

after being in the race for so long,

i knew in my mind that i was ahead of the pack.

like, i knew they just had to be seeing me;

i was in first place, afterall ..

but after running the same race for so long;

going around that same circle lap after lap,

people eventually give up & lose hope.

im not one of those people though ..

see me, i stuck it out;

sprinted my way around the last bend

& gave my all until the very end.

i stood at the finish line for a while;

waiting for everybody to catch up & get done ..

& i just knew i would win that prize;

those medals, that throphy, & everything else

a first place winner would be awarded ..

but i was left standing there,

with nothing to show for it all.

Role Playy

Everybody in this world has a role to play;

& its a shame that people have yet to discover this.

I mean, everybody cant be somebody or something in life.

It just has to people who are nobody & nothing.

Thats why those words were created, if you didnt know.

Lately, btchs been on some otha sht;

like they dont know they roles.

I mean damn, you gotta get in where you fit in ma!

If you not wifey, dont trip like you got the title.

You dont get dat sht of tops;

thats sumn you gotta put in time for.

It aint nothing wrong with being the sideline hoe,

girlfriend numero dos, or whateva you wanna call it;

somebody gotta play the position on the field.

You should at least feel special to have a position;

just know the game aint complete without you!

& if you just a freak or a money maker, be just that;

dont blow the fone up, try to spend "quality time",

& all that extra sht that you not obligated to have.

That right there just throws everything off;

its a balance to this sht.

& you hoes been putting too much weight on ya end of the see-saw ..

Real Recognize Real, I Suppose ..

- you never know who really got you like they say until you at yo' worst; im talking down & out, the lowest of lows, done hit rock bottom type sht`. it seem like the whole city behind me when im at my best; but when life hits a 180 m'fckas get ghost. did i let them stop me though? ha, now thats a rhetorical question. ya already knowing whats up! i had to pick myself up & get myself together; by myself & for myself. but along my journey from demise to rise again, i found somebody that helped me realize alot; its kinda crazy to think about how much clearer things have gotten over the few past days by me just talking to this person. & i was actually quite shocked to have learned some things from her; but when i think about it, im like damn now i see why deezy & jessie fcks wit you so hard; you real! period.point,blank. i see why mufckas dont like you; & i know they gon hate me fa this one! but real recognize real. & i always gotta shout out the real real btchs out hur; so kaniesha, this one's for you!

" quote. "

Life and death;

energy and peace.

If I stop today,

it was all still worth it.

Even the terrible mistakes that I have made

and would have unmade if I could.

The pains that have burned me

and scarred my soul;

it was worth it.

For having been allowed to walk where I've walked;

which was to hell on Earth,

heaven on Earth,

and back again;

into,

under,

far in between,

through it,

in it,

and above.